Insecurity

Today I spent a lot of time getting ready. I thought I would dress up for a change. I thought was looking pretty nice and had a cool new pair of shorts on. I'm thinking "Hey! I think I may have gotten over my insecurity issues! I'm feeling pretty good today. Kittay can work miracles, she is like female Dr. Phil." That is until I ran into Steve at the Curtis'. He looked me up and down, then he said with a smirk on his face " You look like shit today Jellatin and those shorts make you look fat." I didn't wait around to see if he was joking. I totally broke down and ran home crying. I know some of you may think I over-reacted or can't take a joke. Thats not the case. Its just that I can be very sensitive about my apperance, I never used to be until, well I moved to Seattle. Nobody knows this besides Kitty. I didnt want to tell everyone because I knew Dallas would want to kill the guy. In Seattle, I had this boyfriend. His name was Corey. At first he was really cool, then it turned into the typical abusive relationship. He started to become really controlling and didn't want me to talk to any guys. I stupidly thought that it was because he cared about me, was jealous of other guys and wanted to protect me. Then it got really bad. He would blow up at everything I said and did. He would call me a fat, ugly, stupid, skanky whore, etc. When I was about to break up with him, he apologized and became the nice guy again. This happened a few times and the last straw was when he tried to make me sleep with him. Luckily I got away and cut things off, but then he would keep calling me and leaving me notes that ridiculed my apperance and called me horrible things and threatened me. I got a restraining order and I haven't seen him since. Now you know where I get my insecurities from. Okay now back to real time. I ran into my house and into my room and fell on my bed. Then I heard Steve come through the front door and he called "Jellatin?" He knocked on my door and came in. When he saw me he sat down on my bed and said " Jelly! I am so sorry! It was just a stupid joke! I...I never should have said it! I'm sooo sorry!" I have never seen Steve be so apologetic in my life! It was hilarious so I burst out laughing. He gave me this wierd laugh but burst into a grin when he saw I was fine. "To tell you the truth", he said sheepishly "I actually think you look really nice today."
"Steven! Did I hear right? Did you actually compliment me?" I said in mock shock.
"Don't push it Angelica." he said.
"Oh dont even go there Randle" I said as we started making our way back to the Curtis'.
"Make me Angelicaaaaaaaa!" he called as he started running.
"Oh I will!" I called running after him.

Amy, That Pathetic Excuse For A Nurse

Amy. Amy is the so called "nurse" who is the main "nurse" assinged to take care of Kit, Johnny and I. In the most conveniant and simplest terms, Amy is an annoying stupid bitch who deserves to be run over by a wheelchair. So if you couldnt tell I am not fond of her, and niether are Johnny and Kittay. She is making Johnny wear this hospital gown that has cows on it. She is trying to make me wear one and I am like Hell No!! She gave Johnny the wrong Jell-O, which may not seem like a big deal but when you are stuck in a hospital its the little things that matter. This is the thing that annoys me the most about her: I was watching St. Elmo's Fire yesterday when Amy walks in. She is all like "OMG! Rob Lowe is soo hot in this movie blah blah blah" I was like "Dont talk to me when Rob Lowe is on the screen." Yet she keeps talking " I used to have a poster of Rob Lowe on my wall, I used to kiss it everyday" Finally I was like "SHUT UP! You are ruining this movie for me!!!!!!!' Then she left. But she still finds the need to talk about him to me. Then today she did the same thing, but I was watching The Breakfast Club and she was talking about Judd Nelson as Bender. sigh. Oh and I need to tell you about the little old man!! Last night he was trying to escape in his wheelchair and Kit and I were cheering him on!!! Kit befriended him and they are plotting to do something to Amy! YAY! Also Kit got him to try to run over Amy today! Hehehe. That dude is awesome! GO LITTLE OLD MAN!!!!!!!

-Peace
Jelly

P.S. Brooke, Kittay, Pony and I have made Facebooks!!! So you guys should get your asses on there and make one too! I am under Angelica Winston.

Summary of the past few days

So here is a summary of the past few days.....


I am super depressed that Johnny is missing. I didnt even know what to say or think when I found out. I just hope that he is OK and that he comes home soon.


Easter --- I pretended not to like the little Easter egg hunt Soda organized, but secretly I thought it was pretty fun!!!! And I got two things in my Easter Egg from Soda, the first is....




This awesome pair of Pacman earrings!!!!




My second thing was something that i haven't seen for like 4 years. Before Soda and I dated, when we were still just friends, we gave eachother these friendship necklaces. They were really awesome, but when we broke up I gave my necklace back to Soda. Until yesterday, that was the last time I saw it. But sure enough in my egg there was my friendship necklace from Soda. Here are our necklaces, they arent the normal friendship necklaces!! :D

Soda's necklace

My necklace

Also, Steve and I are new BFF's, he says that I repalce Sodapop! :D

P.S. Kit wants to be mentioned in someones post so KITTY YOU ARE SUPER AWESOME!