Monday, May 10, 2010

Happy Freakin Mother's Day

Yesterday was Mother's Day. The day that I have dreaded ever since my mom died. I turn on the radio and there are songs being requested for moms, there are special programs on the tv, and there are Mother's Day articles in the newspaper. I thought my head was going to explode, I couldn't get away from any of it!! So I grabbed an old photo album, some flowers and went to the one place where I could escape everything. The graveyard. And yes I do realize that that sounded kinda creepy. So I found my mom's tombstone and placed the flowers right by it. I sat down and started talking. I told her about how things were going and at first I felt really stupid talking to someone I couldn't even see, but then I got more comfortable with it. As I started looking through the photo album, I started telling my mom about how much I missed and loved her. Then I just burst into tears. I was letting out all the horrible feelings I have had since my Mom died. I then felt a hand on my shoulder, I turned to see Sodapop. I didnt know why he was there, and I didnt care. I buried my face in his chest and I cried like I have never cried before, while he held me, stroked my hair and let me cry without saying anything. I'm sure I was a lovely sight after all that crying. Happy Freakin Mothers Day!

12 comments:

  1. Aww Jelly.....But im glad you went and honored your mom that was nice.
    Soda is being sweet again. And as we all know when someone does something nice Jamie needs to say "Aww" so AWWWWWWWWWWWW

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  2. Jells, I'm sorry. But you gave me a good idea, maybe sometime I'll go looking for my moms grave. Thanks Jelly. I love yoou.
    And that was nice of Popsoda. You two make a cute broken-up-but-insanely-cute-friends thingy

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  3. I'm sorry Jelly. I think I can be someone to tell you I know what it feels. But look at it this way. The people we care about are in a better place. And the way to make them happy is by being ourselves and following our dreams.

    As for Sodapop. He's being 'nice' lately. Petite silver star for him.

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  4. i kno me 2 i hate the freaking mothers day it reminds me of how my mom left to vegas and never ever came back but i want fathers day to come and leave quick cuz its just me and my sister

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  5. Jell I know exactally how you feel. With mom locked up and the sperm doner gone it feels like the whole world is laughing at me when mothers/fathers day comes around. But Soda is sweet, and you have the gang, so to hell with society right?

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  6. Life is wonderful. Don't let the circumstances and society fool you otherwise.

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  7. Mothers day is always hard for all of us. Unlike most of us, you liked your mom. Thats what makes it really tough. That was nice of soda. Its okay we all got your back. Whoa....I didnt know i could be that serious.....MUFFINS. There my comment is complete.

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  8. Woah Johnny, I didn't think u could write that much. Ik How You Feel About Mothers Day. It Hurts, Cause You Dont Have A Mom To Say I Love You Or I Care About You Too.

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  9. jelly can u post something that isnt so depressing plz

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  10. How about you post something? Or shall I touch the hair?

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